but I think it’s ridiculously sad that many people hardly ever listen to classical music anymore. They instead listen to idiotic songs about how they’re going to get laid, or they’re going to go get fucked up. Now, I am also guilty of having fun listening to this kind of substance-less music, but really? Is this all our generation can come up with? Being ignorant to absolutely everything that came before it? I am lucky to have a few friends that still appreciate classical music, and although it might not be top on their everyday favorites to listen to, they still will occasionally love to hear a piece and appreciate it. Our generation has been born with blinders on, adamantly refusing to appreciate any sort of music from the past. Classical music has been labeled as “that boring music my grandparents listen to” but I’m sure, if they actually really listened to it, they wouldn’t be so bored. Instrumental music expresses emotions that are unable to be expressed by the limited nature of language. Melodies say what we cannot say, and harmonies support that. If you follow me on tumblr, you know I am a vocalist and have been studying for years to be so. So you may think it’s funny, me advocating for lyric-less music, but if you really listen to a piece, such as Samuel Barber’s Adagio for Strings (my personal favorite) you will find your own connection to it, but you have to be open to it, and you have to accept it. There are not words meant to thrust the meaning of the song to you, only instruments working together seamlessly to create something truly incredible and unmatched by any words, or any modern day pop song you hear today. Listen to this piece by Samuel Barber, really listen, and tell me you’re not moved by it.
Yup, I’m pretty much a bitch when it comes to guys, or maybe it’s just him? I hate emotions, leave me now.
I’m writing about something that has plagued me the past 6 months, it’s too emotional for me to show it all in one paper. I’m trying to keep myself out of this paper because it’s supposed to be somewhat objective but that’s impossible….
It’s making me realized how messed up the situation was….thank god that’s over now.
So college changes a person, it forces you to re-evaluate yourself - at least that’s what happened with me. I’m making new friends and doing crazy things and having an awesome time, but at the same time I’m still figuring out who I am. I’ve always been that girl who knows who she is and is totally confident and could take on the world, and I still am, college has made me even stronger than I was. I realized I hate putting up with bullshit, and it’s weird because the only time I do put up with it is at home…with him.
Waited three hours for his ass just so he could go be a dick, yes I was a princess and stormed out of his car and slammed the door but I was seriously annoyed. But it’s ok because I hate him and that’s out relationship. What we are has no definition besides “fucked up” because that’s what we both are. I hate boys my own age, they’re dumb and immature and you have to feed them and wash them and change their diapers. I’m holding out for someone who isn’t a baby, and if that means I’m single for a couple years so be it, not wasting my damn time anymore with people who didn’t treat me well.
I went to see a psychic, he said I would find my soulmate or whatever in 2015 and not to be impatient. He also said he would be older, not fully american and make lots of money ;) I know, psychics are all bullshit but this gave me a different perspective. I shouldn’t wait around for some guy, when I meet him it will all make sense, so for now I live my life for me, not for some guy, but I focus on singing and my career and things I know I can count on. I love my new friends here, they’re absolutely amazing and my roommate is pretty cool too :) College is pretty great overall….going home brings me back to my doubts and traps….I blame it on him, but it’s all me.
Disclaimer: There has been one guy who treated me with respect and was incredible, I wish him everything in the world and he knows he’s not a part of my “all guys” :P
Winter Song (Cover) - Brittany Hamson and Ashley Larkin
This is from a holiday concert Ashley organized last year for Brook Grove Retirement Village, where her grandfather lives.
I’m singing the lower harmony, as usual.
Lmfao I love Matias in the background at the end. This legit almost made me cry…that was such a good day.
